Posts Tagged ‘do’
{ April 22, 2008 @ 9:17 am }
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What medications have I taken over the years? Let’s list them, shall we?
I started with Zoloft. Zoloft made me hallucinate and have nightmares. I was changed to Elavil or amitriptyline which made me vomit for hours on end. Then I ended up on Paxil. I quit cold turkey (which I do not advise) just a few months before conceiving my youngest daughter.
When I had my second episode, I ended up on Effexor. Months later, Wellbutrin was added to that. I quit both of these cold turkey within a week of each other (Again, I do not advise doing this and my doctor was not thrilled with my decision.) and was so nauseated that I could hardly eat.
With my last episode, I started on Symbyax. Then Xanax was added so I could sleep. I was still hallucinating so the doctor wanted to start me on Abilify, but it was almost $500 for the prescription so I was changed to Lithium. Lithium took away the hallucinations right away and started working on the depression. I have sleep issues still so the doctor added Trazodone.
So…
Zoloft
Elavil
Paxil
Effexor
Wellbutrin
Symbyax
Zanax
Lithium
Trazodone
{ April 17, 2008 @ 10:20 am }
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Everyone wonders why I hate people. Well, it’s because people are petty, arrogant, selfish and jealous. My uncle called me today and informed me that my mother gets on his nerves talking about people. She has been talking about how my aunt spends money and ranting about my husband and I buying vehicles. Why can’t she just be happy for everyone? I’ll tell you why. It’s because she can’t stand for anyone to do as well as her.
My mind keeps wandering. I can’t sit still and type.
{ April 10, 2008 @ 1:25 pm }
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The charger and battery for my new camera have both come in. Yay!
Unfortunately, storms are moving in so I won’t get a chance to use it today. Boo! Boo!
My sister-in-law is in Chicago and a bad line of storms is moving across. I think they are coming back tonight so I sure hope the storms pass by before they head back home.
I’m just rambling today because I am about to crawl out of my skin. I have been trying to find something to do to occupy my mind but have yet to succeed. I’m going crazy over here!
{ April 9, 2008 @ 3:10 pm }
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Last Friday they doubled my dose of Symbyax. Then on Monday they changed me to Abilify which was way too expensive so they changed my prescription to 300 mg. of lithium twice a day. On Tuesday morning I had a ct scan to rule out a brain tumor. (Results were good, by the way.) I don’t like to tell people around me about my medical or mental issues so I didn’t answer the phone all day. So what does my mother do? She calls my friend at work and asks her what is going on with me and then proceeds to tell her that she has been trying to get me to let her keep my oldest daughter to “help me out”.
What I need right now is for my family to stop trying to “help” and let my hubby and I take care of things ourselves. There may be times when I am not all here but my husband always is and he is perfectly capable of taking care of me and the children.
{ April 3, 2008 @ 8:08 pm }
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Time is just creeping by. How many more years do I have left of this? Good lord, I am just going crazy here.
{ April 3, 2008 @ 5:46 pm }
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I still get up in the morning and just want to go back to bed. I spend all day trying to find something to do to make the time go by and it just creeps on. The only thing I look forward to is bedtime. It just doesn’t seem to get any better.
And the rain just keeps coming down…
Maybe things would be better if it was nice outside. I don’t know. I just know that it’s hard to keep trudging through every day. When will it ever end?
{ April 1, 2008 @ 5:06 pm }
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I went back to sleep as soon as the kids left and all I want to do is sleep. It’s not that I didn’t get any sleep, I just want to sleep the day away. I don’t want to do anything. I don’t want to see anyone. I don’t want to talk to anybody. I just want to separate myself from the world.
Yesterday we went to Memphis and I ended up snapping at hubby because I didn’t want to eat at the place he picked. I refused to eat and ended up crying in the car. Thinking about it now, I acted like a little kid throwing a tantrum. But I couldn’t stop myself…
I feel totally out of it today and have a hard time concentrating on anything. I can’t write. It takes too much to concentrate on it.
{ March 28, 2008 @ 7:02 pm }
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Tomorrow is Saturday. My mom calls and asks me to watch my five year old nephew from 4 AM to 7 AM. No sleeping in for me after a night of no sleep because of missed meds. Lovely. I get tired of answering the phone and hearing the same thing. Never “hey” or “how ya doing”. Always, “Can you do me a favor?”
{ March 28, 2008 @ 4:50 pm }
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We’ve already established that I missed my med. Now I feel like I’m up and down at the same time. Ok….I am definitely all screwed up. I typed the wrong word three times in the last sentence and that never happens. For crying out loud, I type all the time. It’s what I do for a living, ya know?
I’m in a really weird mood and I am just waiting for this day to be over with.
{ March 28, 2008 @ 4:45 pm }
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I woke up this morning and realized right away that I didn’t take my medicine. Knowing that the med knocks me out (which is why I take it at night) I could not take it so I have to deal with the day without it. My skin feels like it is crawling and I have to have something to do constantly so I don’t go mad. I have to keep my mind occupied so if it seems like I’m rambling then I probably am. Thank god hubby isn’t working but 9 hours today.
I can’t wait until he gets home so he can just hold me and make me feel better.
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