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{ April 26, 2008 @ 11:23 am }
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My 9 year old nephew was hospitalized yesterday morning. He has bronchitis, severe dehydration, acute gastritis and possible sepsis. The sepsis test results will be back tomorrow and if it comes back negative he will be released. His white blood cell count is down to 8,000 which is a good sign.
We’re having a bonfire tonight and my sister-in-law and her family were supposed to come down. My poor little nephew asked his parents yesterday if he was going to get to come to the bonfire. I feel so bad for him. When he gets better, I’m going to have another bonfire just for him.
{ April 22, 2008 @ 9:17 am }
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What medications have I taken over the years? Let’s list them, shall we?
I started with Zoloft. Zoloft made me hallucinate and have nightmares. I was changed to Elavil or amitriptyline which made me vomit for hours on end. Then I ended up on Paxil. I quit cold turkey (which I do not advise) just a few months before conceiving my youngest daughter.
When I had my second episode, I ended up on Effexor. Months later, Wellbutrin was added to that. I quit both of these cold turkey within a week of each other (Again, I do not advise doing this and my doctor was not thrilled with my decision.) and was so nauseated that I could hardly eat.
With my last episode, I started on Symbyax. Then Xanax was added so I could sleep. I was still hallucinating so the doctor wanted to start me on Abilify, but it was almost $500 for the prescription so I was changed to Lithium. Lithium took away the hallucinations right away and started working on the depression. I have sleep issues still so the doctor added Trazodone.
So…
Zoloft
Elavil
Paxil
Effexor
Wellbutrin
Symbyax
Zanax
Lithium
Trazodone
{ April 17, 2008 @ 10:20 am }
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Everyone wonders why I hate people. Well, it’s because people are petty, arrogant, selfish and jealous. My uncle called me today and informed me that my mother gets on his nerves talking about people. She has been talking about how my aunt spends money and ranting about my husband and I buying vehicles. Why can’t she just be happy for everyone? I’ll tell you why. It’s because she can’t stand for anyone to do as well as her.
My mind keeps wandering. I can’t sit still and type.
{ April 10, 2008 @ 1:25 pm }
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The charger and battery for my new camera have both come in. Yay!
Unfortunately, storms are moving in so I won’t get a chance to use it today. Boo! Boo!
My sister-in-law is in Chicago and a bad line of storms is moving across. I think they are coming back tonight so I sure hope the storms pass by before they head back home.
I’m just rambling today because I am about to crawl out of my skin. I have been trying to find something to do to occupy my mind but have yet to succeed. I’m going crazy over here!
{ April 9, 2008 @ 3:10 pm }
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Last Friday they doubled my dose of Symbyax. Then on Monday they changed me to Abilify which was way too expensive so they changed my prescription to 300 mg. of lithium twice a day. On Tuesday morning I had a ct scan to rule out a brain tumor. (Results were good, by the way.) I don’t like to tell people around me about my medical or mental issues so I didn’t answer the phone all day. So what does my mother do? She calls my friend at work and asks her what is going on with me and then proceeds to tell her that she has been trying to get me to let her keep my oldest daughter to “help me out”.
What I need right now is for my family to stop trying to “help” and let my hubby and I take care of things ourselves. There may be times when I am not all here but my husband always is and he is perfectly capable of taking care of me and the children.
{ April 7, 2008 @ 6:26 pm }
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I’m still having hallucinations so the doctor wants me to go for a cat scan in the morning to rule out any other problems. He also decided to change my med to Abilify. I don’t think I will have the chance to try it because when I called to see how much it would cost to fill the prescription, I was told it would be 474.94. We are in our bridge on our insurance (where the insurance does not pay until you spend a preset amount) so insurance isn’t paying any of that. Lovely. Now I can’t afford the meds.
My doctor also suggested I find a psychiatrist and possibly inpatient services. I can’t afford my prescriptions so I certainly can’t afford inpatient. Besides, I have children at home and I have to be here to take care of them. Hubby called my doctor to ask for an alternative and he is supposed to talk to him after he returns from lunch.
I feel like I am a big burden.
{ April 2, 2008 @ 4:51 pm }
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Alright, already. I’ve had enough bad days. It’s time for at least one good day. I’m tired of waking up and only wanting to go back to sleep. I’m tired of sitting around waiting for bedtime. Hell…I’m just tired.
I feel like there is nothing to look forward to in life. Each day is just another I have to drag myself through and it seems pointless at times. I mean, what is the point? I’m still trying to figure it out, so I am back to taking things minute by minute and working my way back up to day by day.
I have had some good news. I think I sold my camera. I’ll know for sure Friday because that’s when the guy is supposed to pick it up.
I need to go take a shower. Maybe I will be more awake and focused after that…but I’m not counting on it.
{ March 28, 2008 @ 7:02 pm }
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Tomorrow is Saturday. My mom calls and asks me to watch my five year old nephew from 4 AM to 7 AM. No sleeping in for me after a night of no sleep because of missed meds. Lovely. I get tired of answering the phone and hearing the same thing. Never “hey” or “how ya doing”. Always, “Can you do me a favor?”
{ March 28, 2008 @ 4:50 pm }
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We’ve already established that I missed my med. Now I feel like I’m up and down at the same time. Ok….I am definitely all screwed up. I typed the wrong word three times in the last sentence and that never happens. For crying out loud, I type all the time. It’s what I do for a living, ya know?
I’m in a really weird mood and I am just waiting for this day to be over with.
{ March 27, 2008 @ 7:39 pm }
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I’m just really zoned out today. It’s been a long one and it’s not that any thing has really happened, it’s just one of those days.
I’ve been working on putting together a DVD from our vacation pictures and videos and the songs just don’t seem quite right but I can’t worry myself over something so trivial. It will just have to do.
G is ill and not feeling well today so he is coming off as snippy. You know, I really don’t know if it is him or me. It could just be me. I’m so glum that I can’t even write. I’m off to bill my boss for the month of April and finish my videos.
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